Will you be the one?

Today, we've chatted ... got to know that you have interest with someone .. part of me is happy, the other part of me is down ... i do not know why ... its as though my heart is crying out.. but no one hears ... saddest moment of my life. if only anyone knows about this. perhaps a word of encouragement will be sufficient...hope there is someone out there that will read all this that i have to say...

Only One ...

Cause you're all I ever want, you're all I ever need. You're everything to me.
How could I ever get here, standing here with you, and not be moved by you?
You gave me my life back, you gave me hope.
I would give up forever, to touch you.
You're the closest to heaven than I'll ever be.
All i can breath is your life, and it'll be over sooner or later.
When everything's meant to be broken, I just want you to know who I really am, and what my feelings are for you.
And when you can't fight those tears that is coming, let it all out, I will be there always for you.
This I promise you.
Cause my love is all I could ever give, to you and only you.
Indeed, I do not want the world to see me, as I know and don't think that they'll understand.
When things are meant to be broken, just remember who I am...

Fall for you?

Indeed, I have fallen for you, so deep that I did not even realize it. Indeed, the night that I would fall for you over again. I do not want to change my mind. I might not be able to live to see another day, because a girl like you, the one who can make me even fall so deeply for you, is impossible to find, indeed you are.

Without you, I would not say I am lost. But that is before I know you. You know very well and certain how we've met. Never have I expected that I will fall for you, the girl I found from a site.

Could this be fate? I am totally confused with all this thing that is happening with us now. I wish to see you again. I wish that you would message me without me having to message you everytime.

When you left, I really lost a part of myself. Indeed it is hard to believe. Never knew that you will have such great impact in my life.

It ends tonight...

When I saw you were online, I was so happy, thrilled that I can finally have a conversation with you. In fact, the happiest moment in my life that I can ever recall.

When you told me that you are not the one that I should be waiting for, it breaks my heart. I wanted to tell you so much that indeed I am waiting for you to come back.

How much I wanted to tell you that I have a crush on you, a very big one. But instead, I said one more thing that I am regretting, but am not able to change it. I told you that we are buddies.

Which to my surprise, you sounded so serious when you mentioned the differences between buddies and lovers. I know the differences, but I do not wish it will come true. I wanted us to be more than just buddies. I regretted for saying that we're buddies, I really do. :'(

You know not how much I feel to see what you have written.

I'll be....

Tell me will you, that we belong together? Then I will be your crying shoulder, always there, whenever you need me to be.

I know that you have just ended a relation of sadness and anger, for what he did. Yes it is wrong, but are you willing to give me a chance to be part of your life?

Rain falls, angry with whatever happens in that thin room. But will I ever stand a chance to help you build a tough, think room, where anger has no place in it?

I want to be there for you, but will you allow me to? All this keeps coming back to me, no matter how hard it is I try to let it go.

I feel it burns within me, to know that I am not able to be of any help to you to release your burden, or at least, to lighten it. It tears me apart when you left, seeing you leaving with a sad face. I know of what you feel, but am not encouraged enough to at lease give you a hug before you leave. I regretted it so much, for not letting you know that I care, that I am here, if you ever need me.

Will you ever know all this? Will you ever read all this?

Someone to love??

It is the third day since you left to Singapore. My heart felt it like forever. I lose all that I like, I can't eat, I can't sleep. It felt like the end of the world to me. Why is this happening to me? Are you the someone for me? Someone for me to love?

If it is true, will you stay? I am willing to make up whatever it takes for us to be together. But is it for real? Or is it just my illusions and empty dreams?

The first girl I ever had so big crush on. But is it true and real? Or is it just a come and go feeling?
I wish I know the answer to this. I am seriously in an edge of a cliff, of an unknowning depth awaiting for me. Darkness is all I can see, sorrowness is all I can feel, loneliness is just around the corner, awaiting me to fall in.

What will happen of me? I do not know.. Wish someone can tell me what to do.

The Day The Earth Stood Still...

This is indeed the day that I could not sleep at all. I do not know why. It is in fact as though the earth stood still, time stopped, and is not allowing me to go through the day. I tried very hard not to think of you, but the harder I try, the more I remember you.

I wish all this can be stopped, I want it to end. Not to end the feeling I have for you, but the suffering, to know that we are not meant to be together. I know not why I fall for you, I know not why it happen. But you are indeed the first girl that can ever make such an impact in my life in such short time.

Is it a puppy love? Or is it something that is real? Is it finally that you've come along, to break all the spells in me? To set me free from whatever I am in? Are you the one that I am looking and waiting for? Am I finally able to find what I have been dreaming of?

The Day You Left ...

When I see you off that day, it was the day that my life almost stopped. I did not understand how it happened, neither do I know what was going on. When I was home, the only thing that is in my mind was only you. I could not let it go, nor did I know what was my feeling all about. It was the worst day i ever had. My heart keeps telling me that I misses you, and my mind can only show your image and nothing else.

I did not know what else to do. I did not know how can I even tell you this. It can only be kept in here with me, after all, with the current situation, i don't think we can even start off a relationship, though i wanted it badly.

I do not know what else can I do. I am very confused with whatever feeling that is in me. I do not want to hurt the one I am with now, but neither do I even want to let you go. You are the first girl I ever encounter that gives me such a feeling, a feeling so strong that it makes me uneasy since the day you left. I do not know how to face this feeling. It has been 3 days, and I have not been able to sleep peacefully, without thinking about you.

If only all this could reach to you. I would like you to know how I feel, though it is rather an impossible thing to happen.

I wish it could, I wish we could.